Hey ladies, I have a confession to make.
I never thought I’d be the mom that lost herself in motherhood…
But I was.
When my daughter was born, she became my world. She was my very favorite person to be with and everything else was secondary, at best.
One night while my sister was visiting, we went in to check on my sleeping cherub. She asked me how I knew she was still breathing when she’s sleeping. I told her, “She has to be. I would literally die without her in my life.” Saying that out loud was like getting struck by lightening. I would die without my daughter because I had nothing else to live for. I had made her the center of my world and let everything else fall away.
That’s a scary statement right there. And, by the way, totally not fair to my daughter. That’s a lot of pressure for an infant.
Before I was a mom, I was a choral singer. I went out with friends. I related to my husband as a partner. I had a job I (mostly) enjoyed. After becoming a mom? Nope, nope, nope, and nope. I gave up choir because of childcare issues. I didn’t go out because, what if the baby needed me?
My post-mommy life was pretty damn sad. And so was I.
In the moment I realized this, it was like the clouds parted and I could see the sky for the first time in forever (you’re welcome for that little earworm).
But a second later they clouded back up again. Sure, I knew that I wanted to be more than just a mom, but I had no clue what to do about it. Every day already felt so full, especially when I went back to work. How was I going to be able to do anything differently to help me find my way back to pre-baby Stacey?
It turns out, it’s not easy… but it’s not as hard as it seems either.
I know there are other moms out there going through the same thing. They feel stuck. They feel drained. They feel lost. And they wonder, “Is this it?”
If that sound like you, I want to help.
I want to help those moms who’ve given so much of themselves that they feel as though there’s nothing left.